Friends...Wherever you are... Thank you!!!!

... i died suddenly?? (oh, mintak2 panjang umur, amin)

frens from my cyber life, bbs rindu & auggie

i have this thought over and over and over and i try to forget it. i want to live longer. till today, i still a nobody person, not a v.i.p. nor a professional blue collar worker. it gave me creepy thought that i still not achieve almost all my 'mission'.

frens from college, HND in Computing 96-99

i had this one particular ''mission' in my head since last year, to find and track down my old friend from school and college. even i am not too comfortable to meet my old friends, due to my low self esteem, i gather all my strength to make my move.

class of 5KJ1 1995

luckily, thank to the social networking we have here like friendster, myspace and the latest i joined, facebook, i finally meet them again.

class of 2 teratai 1992 (experiment class lol)

so, to my dear friends who know me from before or just recently get to know me, please accept my sincere apology if i had done or said something bad. i know, sometimes i easily get cranky. and thank you to all for still being my friend and still remember me even after our long separation.

class of 1 ros 1985

It's me... Just me...

... i have multiple personalities??? i bet it's gonna be fun when we can be other person than our usual self. But, it's gonna be scary if one of the personality is a psycho mad killer, like NIKI from HEROES. (mintak2 di jauhkan).

Niki Sanders of HEROES

i wonder, what should i gonna be. but then, i still did not get the exact answer for my own question. (nih yang selalu sakit kepale nih).

at this stage of my age, i still struggling to create my own identity. for all those years i left left behind, i never have my courage to seek what type of person i am.

duh, it still hard to write something for this blog. i have lots a thing to say, but seem it stuck in my throat. i know, i don't have enough confident to speak up. like before, if i had anything to say, i prefer to keep it to myself. but recently, after moving in back to my hometown, little by little i gather my strength to be confident. i don't want any regrets anymore. enough i let those opportunities passed by. i want me to be upgraded to new person, more caring, more sensitive, more responsible and make more effort on anything i want to do.

It's for him...

... i use this blog as a way to improve my English, basically my grammar. Well, maybe i can. i never done such thing before. i am to afraid to make a move, to afraid to try a new thing. so, this is quite new to me, writing something openly.

The story begin when i was in my secondary school. I tried my best to get his attention, by getting higher marks in this subject. even, i took English 1119 to show him that i am really taking this subject seriously. but in the end, I never know if he noticed my effort.

Hahaha, so pathetic, try to learning something because of someone. supposed i learn things because i want to learn, not i want someone to notice.

well, it quite a boring post, but, hey... this is my first post... and by the way this is my blog.... i can write whatever i want.

till next time ...